went to winter retreat. was weird. was fun. emotions here and there (sad/happy). overall pretty good. very cold. got to see some great sights, ill upload the sketches later. food wassss.. actually not that bad.
CS classes. im too scared/shy to talk to anyone in my class because everyone seems super smart and serious. i just sit there in my lab section and twiddle my thumbs till i can leave then suffer through the weekend. BUT. programming is very fun.
social life is... lol. well its a trainwreck. i mean i try to hang out when i can.. i try to talk to people when i can.. sometimes ill act like i just have nothing better to do but really im stretching my time incredibly thin just so i can spend time with people.
personal health. i need vegetables. atleast im seeing a bit of growth in some of my lifting. (im still really weak gaiz.)
so far though. im managing better than i thought i would. I chose this path as a result of a very awkward situation, i wanted more than anything to escape that situation. to prove to myself that I was worth more than how i felt. at times pressure and stress really crush me to dust. I'm always on a time frame always under a deadline.. always forced to adapt and learn. but I'm grateful in being able to recognize that this is not an opportunity many have. i like to hope that i can push myself to break these limits and become better in the end, and this allows me to somewhat revel in the challenge.
quarter is half way over. lets see how much more i can take.
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